The idea of love at first sight is a ridiculous notion, but I knew instantly this person before me would be someone I would eventually love. It was a matter of obtaining all the details of her life. Once that occurred there would be no turning back.

My name is Lucas Randerson. I was born 1990 on a small farm in Central Florida. I was educated up until the 10th grade and then I began working for my father. My dad, Lucas Randerson Sr. owned an orange grove. I started off working in the fields and learning about the harvest. I couldn’t communicate too well with a lot of the employees on account of they couldn't speak much English. As I grew older and matured more responsibility was delegated my way. As I look back some of my best memories came from being out on the fields goofing off. As my dad got sicker the more the business demanded my maturity.

One year while I was on vacation I met a girl named Jenny. I was crazy about her from the get-go. She was a Southern girl from Alexandria, Louisiana. I sought after marrying her from the moment I learned her name and that’s just what I did. She moved out to Florida and we began running my fathers business together.

One year a terrible disease spread throughout the fields and all the produce failed to grow. With a gloomy financial situation and a marriage going sour my morale was at an all-time low.

In the summer of 2019 Jenny and I divorced. We had two young children and I felt terrible inside for they’d never know what it meant to be a family.

For the most part this is my story. I’d like to take it day by day if you’re interested in listening.

Pieces of you, new insights, anything. My curiosity is starved. I'm searching for a glimpse of you.

I went to my first crossfit gym today. I met a lot of the people in this video. Can't wait for tomorrow.

It feels nice to be home. I'm not use to having this much time to myself. I really needed this time to recharge my batteries. I'm anxious to put back on my uniform and arrive at Diego Garcia. I wonder much about what's in store for me. I'm still trying to become a linguist.

Trading

Six thirty

She walked the deck of the ship

five years ago planning the act

of robbing me of all I was worth.

I dream of her hands around my neck

while I lay in the damp sand and the chilled

sea numbing the tips of my toes.

It’s the brunettes that look best undressed

and she’s slowly slipping into coveralls

now tightly gripping a sledgehammer.

On the coffee table is the New York Times

which I read every Sunday with breakfast

and a tall glass of orange juice.

On an all white porcelain plate is my heart

stolen out my chest and it’s still beating

taking a beating as she swings life away.

Say all that you have to say

Thinking

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Epitaph

Fingertips on the keys typing heartfelt stories

For the woman whose heart fell too many stories

Here I am at your funeral wearing what I wore on our first date

The whole town is here

I showed up drunk smelling of beer

Everyone is wearing black

and my eyes did as well

the eye shadow of fists

temporary imprints

with a slight hint of blue

I know who killed you
and they said I’m next



my fate is in Florida
flooded with fantasy
forever fighting the fever
the feeling of your warmth
I’m basking in your eyes


I’m not an American
Nor do I fight for this country
I fight for Florida
And so the sun may shine
As I set sail for France
Where vineyards await
And grapes to be ate
Sing hymns for the traveler
And may his way be paved
Without him knowing

This poetry is atrocious and timely it is
I carve my name as this is written in the stone
of plastic clocks timing this sequence of words
spewed from the lips and tongue of a navy sailor
whose mouth is filled with vulgarisms
yet a body incompatible with its own speech


a baseball bat to the head
is what I said when asked
how I felt or a belt to the chin
forever marking my skin
Immortal through these words
I need no next of kin

Congratulations
You made it
and here we are
nowhere

shun their teachings
and run wild in the margins
you didn’t have to die


Love,
Louie

Paris and Friends

I stared at this glossy map for a while before I made any decision. My eyes were level with Madagascar. I had no intention of going there but I did some research to pay off my curiosity  and the more of it I did the more I was set on traveling there.

I wasn’t entirely sure however. I’ve never been to London or Rome, Tokyo or Sydney, Dublin or St. Petersburg and these are all places I planned on visiting. Something about Iceland had always intrigued me. I studied the life of Bobby Fischer for a bit and I remember how he had found asylum there.  

My life as an amateur chess player has taken a hiatus, but I was still interested in pursuing the culture.  I was looking up flights to Reykjavik at this point when I found discounted flights to Paris. I quickly did my research and without a moment’s hesitation I booked the flight.

Part of my love in traveling is not knowing exactly where I’m going. Having a plan takes away from the moment. It misguides people and keeps them from going with their instincts. I want to show up in a city and not have a clue what to do or where to go. I don’t want to be on the guest list. I’ll take my chances. Keep your itinerary and chauffeur. I’ll be out really understanding what it means to be alive.

Two of my friends from college decided this was one of my ideas they’d partake in.  Noah was my roommate and Isabella had always been a close friend. She had one last summer before she began law school and I was happy she was coming along. Why she decided to study law will never fully resonate with me. I’d much rather be with a woman with a way with words.

I arrived a week earlier then they. I had 10,000$ put away in a bank account and I didn’t plan on leaving France with any of it.

I called Isabella as I stood in the presence of the Eiffel Tower.

”Guess where I am?” I asked her.

“The Palace of Versailles, she said.

“Not quite. You know I’m waiting for you for that one.”

“You better,” she said.

“What are you doing now,” I asked.

“I’m out shopping with my mom,” Isabella said. “We just ate sushi and I’m looking for new suitcases.”

“Tell your mom I said hello.”

“I will,” she said.

“I called because I was just thinking about how I don’t want to stay in hostels for these next months,” I said.

“Where else would we stay?” She asked.

“Well I don’t know how to go about it, but I would like to rent out an apartment,” I said.

“Is that even possible?” She asked.

“I’m going to try.”

“Who is going to rent out an apartment for a couple of months anyway?”

I told her this was more than a vacation.  I told her I didn’t plan on leaving.

“I want to live and breathe this city,” I told her. “I want to become a part of it. I want to be changed by it.”

“Leonidas, you never fail to surprise me,” she said.

“I’m anxiously awaiting your and Noah’s arrival,” I told her. “I’m off. I will see you soon.”

“See you soon,” she said.

 

Is this the end or beginning

I'm in the military now. I joined the Navy about six months ago. I'm a Mass Communication Specialist. I feel as if I have changed a lot recently. The changes have been good ones and I think they will stay with me for the rest of my life.

I have two months until I'm done with being in a military training environment. After that the Navy will become more or less a job and not a constant transformation of who I am as a person.

I feel as if I left a lot behind back in my normal life. It's definately true. The only thing I wish I could have brought with me into this new lifestyle is you. I miss sharing my life with you. I never expected this to end so shortly. I've imagined and thought out this friendship for a lifetime.

I hope you hear me.

Love,
Louie

Young Fischer

Absolutely brilliant. Bobby Fischer is 13 years old and plays with such precision. It makes me want to be better. I've been studying games and moves all day. Hopefully I'll continue to do so and one day take a stab at being someone in the chess world.

That pawn

This player was well beyond my rank. I'm not even a true 1158. I spent too much time contemplating a few of my moves. When the game ended in a draw I only had 40 seconds left to his 13 minutes. I'm not sure if he noticed that because he provoked a draw. I began this game right after watching the movie "Searching For Bobby Fischer." I felt like it was my duty to play well and I did. I want to start getting more serious about chess. This is a little piece of motivation for me. There was a pawn I wanted to take in this game but I wasn't sure if it was the right move. g3 was the move I made. I wanted to protect his queen from coming in.

Library Dreams

One Day

This film was sad. There is a point in the movie where everything will change in an instance. It's intense. The storyline is interesting and definitely believable. The flashbacks at the end show how much they meant to each other all along. Lots of surprises during this one. I was kind of wondering what was going to happen the whole time. I don't want to ruin it for you so just go watch it.

Never Let Go Of Me

I just finished watching this great movie. I have a feeling the book would tap into anyone's emotions a bit more. I really enjoyed the story. I thought it was creative on the authors part. The whole idea of donations and being someones carbon copy is interesting. For anyone looking to watch it I would recommend getting the torrent. If you are not familiar with how to do this download a program called Bit Torrent. (Be careful. You have to be somewhat computer savvy in order to know the potential for a virus to come about.) Once you have that, google any movie, "Never Let Go Of Me Torrent." Watch the trailer if you like.

Running

I did five miles on the treadmill just now. It felt great. I ran the first mile and a half. After that I mixed it up. I'm not going to lie. I did a lot of walking. Although, a lot of walking uphill. I set the incline high and it was like I was hiking up a steep mountain. A couple of times I even ran with the incline set and that was extremely tough. My timing could have been better. 5 miles in 65 minutes isn't too great. This is only my second day running though. I'll get faster and stronger over time. My calves definitely received a wake up call today.

Two-a-days

So I've written my workout schedule that I want to stick to religiously until boot camp. I want to train everyday twice a day seven days a week. CHEST, LEGS, BI/TRI, Back, Shoulders, repeat, repeat, repeat. I'll do the body building on my first trip to the gym and then cardio later on when I go back. For cardio I intend to run, bike, or swim daily. Push-ups are a mandatory along with all of this. I started with chest today so legs for tomorrow. I'm really enjoying these Naked Protein Juice Smoothies. They have 30g of protein in a bottle and are delicious. Here is a video advertising the product. It's humorous.

DONT GIVE UP!!!

So I'm playing like an idiot here and make a big blunder early on because my king wants to stroll around the park. Luckily I see some potential for a few big moves and I make them. All through this he thinks I have no idea how to play chess and he gets a little too excited with taking me out. This game was a work of art and I shall never forget it! I often don't see the potential for sacrifices but I made one here and it worked beautifully! I'm still learning, so for all you chess experts don't tread on me for getting a bit overwhelmed with my mediocre play.

Lost On Time!

So I outplayed a player way beyond my rank and I lost because I ran out of time. Around move 49 I spent a lot of time thinking about what I was going to do. I spent way too much time. We were talking during the game and I was explaining that my end game is the weak part of my game. That's the reason I took so long making some important decisions. They turned out to be the better decisions but I spent too much time contemplating them. I could learn a lot from this game. The two games before this I lost both. I went ahead by a piece in both and they still managed to get a check-mate. My defense has been lacking. I do a great job in this game though. At least I think.

Ran 2 miles.
Biked 3 miles.
Worked out my chest a bit.
Sat in the sauna.

Seemed like my entire town was at the gym today. I had to park in the back of the building. I never have to do this. There were so many strange things I noticed. Like for instance there was more men in the spinning class than woman. ASIANS? So many Asians at the gym today. Seemed like Asians work out for free day.

Time to get in shape. I weigh a flimsy 138lb.  I use to be inching towards 160 back when I was on my grind.

Lets do this! I have to... and I mean HAVE TO... bulk up before boot camp.  I'm not going there looking like a small fry. Just not happening. I want to be in such a shape to where they are wondering why the hell I'm going to be photographer and not a Navy Seal. I'm going to have to start hitting the gym twice a day.

New Merch I Just Bought

Yale - IS FOR RICH KIDS

OBEY

My favorite shade of blue. NIXON

I've never used a wallet but I intend to start doing so.

Akomplice

Bought a shirt from this company without knowing anything about it while I was in Atlanta.

King Protection Is Important.....

I was destroyed in this game. I played a weak variation of my irregular opening that I haven't quite mastered. At first it really throws off my opponents because they aren't use to seeing something like it. Somewhere along the way I went off track. I think this was just a much more skilled player. He set up the perfect play that I failed to see. The biggest lesson I learned here was protection of the king. I failed to properly have a secure defense and it cost me my queen. After looking at the game more closely I didn't develop my pieces at all. My knights served no purpose the entire game. This opening needs to be tossed or it needs to be finely tuned.

Pawn Strength

I won this game a while back. He resigned at the end because I was about to take his queen. My opponent played foolishly and had a few blunders. I want to start documenting my games and learning from my own strengths and weaknesses. One thing I did great here was controlling the center of the board. Many people I've played so far would rather push their pawns forward then simply trade them. It's pointless to push pawns forward without proper protection. I imagine as I go up in rank things will get more difficult for me. I'm glad I figured out how to embed my games on here. It took me a bit.

Supra Vaiders and Akomplice